pinwheelsGrief is a multi-faceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something to which a bond was formed.

While I never in a million years would have bet that this is where my husband and I would be, I can’t help but stand in awe that we are truly where we are supposed to be. Reflecting on this journey, I can see each perfectly placed stepping stone that the Lord so beautifully placed to lead us to today. Each person, each life, each and every tear, fear, and smile have made us stand tall and honor our son.  How could we not rejoice a life that was lived with so much joy? In one of my first posts I wrote that a dear friend told me, “Sometimes life can rock our world but hold on friend for the ride cause, I can promise you…you will not feel blessed for what your sweet baby has to face but you will know life like you never knew before.” We grieve for Owen. There is a hole in our hearts that will never truly be filled until we meet him again. In no way do we feel blessed for his pain and having to send him home to the Lord so soon but oh do we feel blessed to have known him, loved him, and gotten to call ourselves his Mom and Dad. We are so thankful to God’s promise and once again find ourselves clinging to Owen’s life verse, Jeremiah 29:11.

This is going to be the toughest year for my husband and me. Each milestone, holiday, his birthday will all bring about a grief that will be deep and hurt to our very core. We are so thankful to have each one of you to be there loving us and “holding space” anytime we need it.

Saturday we were surrounded by our heart family and celebrated Owen in true Owen style. We could not have orchestrated a better party for him. We could feel him and God in the room with us and they were glad. Each word shared by our family and each song that was sung was filled with Owen’s message of bravery, love, hope, and joy. Thank you to all of those that could be with us and everyone that celebrated him from around the world. At the end of the service we gave a pinwheel to each person and asked them to place it somewhere outside. Owen did not spend much time outdoors and we wanted a place where a symbol of him could blow in the breeze. We asked that each time the wind blows, you think of Owen’s sweet smile, know he is with you, and think of the impact he had on the world. We would love to see pictures of where you placed his pinwheel. Would you please post photos on his page of your pinwheel in its new home?

We have decided to take our first family vacation and spend some time reconnecting. We are so thankful to our friends for house sitting and giving us this opportunity.  We will be taking a cyber vacation as well and disconnecting for a week. We look forward to updating everyone on all of the exciting things the foundation will be doing in the coming months and launching it with all of you.

May you have a week of sunshine and feel Owen every time the wind blows. We love you heart family.


One thought on “Pinwheels

  1. So sorry for your loss and may God’s love and strength get you through your upcoming days and nights. Hold onto Owen’s preciou smile.

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